get ready to jump

bai.

title: untitled for now. chapter two.
author: vanchi, the author formerly known as .bennizzle.jizzle.
warnings: there will be slash, soon.
status: chaptered, unfinished.
note: this chapter brought to you by the three essays i have due next week.
disclaimer: to my knowledge, none of the events you are about to read occured to the characters mentioned in real life.
description: Chester's starting to wonder what the hell is really going on with this band.

chapter one.


( and then it continues. )

Went on hiatus but the fact that no one would miss me or even notice was more distracting than lj/lpf/msn were in the first place.

Cal is killing me right now. I want to disappear. But no one would care.

I have a new msn screenname. If you want me to add you, ask.

I'm probably deleting this thing soon. [translation: i'm probably deleting all of you soon and adding a few of you elsewhere]

-- Day of Silence --

Wednesday, April 18, 2007 is National Day of Silence. This is a day on which those people who support creating safe schools for Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender people take a nine-hour vow of silence to recognize and protest the harassment, prejudice and discrimination - in effect, the silencing - that Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, and Transgender people face. Instead of speaking, high school and university participants hand out cards or wear stickers or t-shirts printed with the following message:

"Please understand my reasons for not speaking today. I am participating in the Day of Silence Project, a national youth movement protesting the silence faced by lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender people, and their allies. 91.5% of LGBT students in America frequently witness and/or receive harassment for being who they are. 82.9% report that staff or faculty members present silently pretend not to notice. My deliberate silence echoes that silence, which is caused by harassment, prejudice and discrimination. I believe that ending the silence is the first step towards fighting these injustices. Think about the voices you are not hearing today. What are you going to do to end the silence?"

Thousands of students across the states will unite on this day in a visible silence to create real change in local schools. Are you in?

I don’t like how I feel about you

( cut for obsession/stalkerism/overall disgusting )

25 Essential rules of slash

1. Everyone is gay. The ones that say they aren't are in denial.
2. You don't need to make eye contact to know that you're in love.
3. It never stops at a kiss.
4. In the heat of passion, clothing is always rippable.
5. Everyone has a very artistic inner monologue which rambles for awhile before anything ever happens to them.
6. No matter how sexy your partner is, if it hurts when he bites you, you're being raped.
7. Rape will make you flinchy, jumpy, and a million times more vulnerable than you already were. Chances are, though, you were pretty vulnerable to begin with.
8. After being raped, someone will always be there to make you feel better. If they don't, you should probably kill yourself.
9. Having your hair stroked will always make you feel better.
10. Prostitutes are always more than they seem.
11. Nobody in slash is mentally stable. That includes you. Maybe you should kill yourself.
12. There's always room for makeup sex. And oh, is it delicious.
13. Popular boys secretly want geeks.
14. Threesomes are never awkward the morning after.
15. Monogamy is nonexistant. If it can and does exist, something or someone is going to get in the way. Gruesomely. You might want to kill yourself before it happens.
16. Brothers and cousins make excellent partners/lovers/fuckbuddies.
17. There is an angsty song for everything.
18. Everyone has been a hooker, or acted like one, in another life.
19. The paler you are, the more likely you are to get raped.
20. Lube and condoms materialize out of nowhere.
21. If lube doesn't show up, there is always something liquid and non-acidic available.
22. The best way to show someone that you're mad at them is to rape them.
23. A virgin's first time is always romantic, non-awkward and magical.
24. If it isn't any of the above, it was definitely rape.
25. Consider killing yourself.


oh man they're all so true..

title: whore
author: .bennizzle.jizzle.
status: chaptered, unfinished
note: i promise a new chapter of something before finals. i'm tired. i was motivated to do this by joobie mcboobie's reposting of me faves. t'is all about you and swiss cheese, darling. you know this.
description: Mike calls Chester a whore. And Rob's starting to think that maybe he's right.



( read )

Title Apples
Rating: PG-13
Description: Mike's a dick, and in retrospect maybe Chester should have aimed higher.
notes: i thought of/wrote this in less than an hour, which literally never happens to me. i would like to thank alex for being a rabid shinoda haterz. thanks also go to: bobo for being amaaazingly gangster and sending amazing things and just in general being amazing, professor reighford for giving me a 3-4 page paper due tomorrow which is what i should have been doing instead of writing this, pam for being a big loser that i will stab in the thigh someday soon, chad from my rhetoric class for being a dumb fuck everytime you fucking talk, and big ups to mike shinoda for being a smug lying bastard. :D i doubt it will be continued, but you never know with me.



( apples )

Title: Valley Christian High School. Chapter Five.
Author: .bennizzle.jizzle.
Pairing: Chester/Rob
Rating: R
Genre: Love and Romance, Drama, Angst
Status: Chaptered, unfinished.
Warnings: Slash.
Disclaimer: None of the following events occurred in actuality, as far as I know.
Note: lol I started this story 3 years ago. and lmfao, my original characters are oh so original. t'is short but in relation to the next chapter that's fine.
Description: Ear piercing. Lip piercing. Eyebrow piercing. Wild hair. Wild (and not to mention tight) clothes. Bright colors, particularly the rainbows. He didn’t belong. But that didn’t stop him from getting what he wanted; nothing did.



[One.] [Two.] [Three.] [Four.]




( Chapter Five. )

the homosexual is everywhere!


film made in 1954 by sid davis.

sigh, lent is hard.

i've decided march will be the month that i post no pictures.

at any rate, ( my weekend was nice. )


( long survey stolen from kate )

title: tears
genre: angst
rating: pg-13 for language.
summary: he's crying. he's fucking crying. and this is supposed to mean something?

( this all started with a fuckign tear )

so new year's eve came around and with it some excitement and some trepidation. i was nervous that my dad would start being an asshole, that people would be bored, that somethign important would break, that my dad hadn't paid the electric bill, that only 3 people would come, etc etc. BUT, all the nerves were in vain. well, not all. some people were bored but i didn't much care.

this, as were the first and second parts, is mad image heavy.

( the party!! )

recap!
clubbin, poor service at denny's, lectures from my dad, dancing, spankings, time warp!, creepy parking lots, csi, pancakes, liquor, MAAN!, anime about being raped with corn, microphones in billy's eyebrow, krystelle's nipple rings, twister, the hustle, everytime we touch, gogo boys in drag, a whole lotta makin out, some hickies, no sex [damn periods], the view, horrified little old ladies, jesus people!, jesus blood!, ghetto people in mc donald's parking lots, a whole lotta surprise sex, christ love, ice cream sundaes, confessions, chocolate covered boi love...

best weekend of my life. i love you guys.

sorry for the delay, moving and laziness gets in the way of many things. this is the continuum of best weekend eva!!!1 pt.i - i just wanna fuckin dance

friday came along, and with it extreme boredom [and my ears were still ringing lol]. i went to cvs pharmacy to get some pics printed so i could finish my photo album before the party on sunday. brandon and nique stalked me down and kidnapped me, and next thing i know we're at the McDonald's by Billy's house laughing about green prayer cloths and holy water. warning: sacreligious talk inside!

( it's all about jesus! )

not as exciting as the first part i'm sure. it was one of those you-had-to-be-there things. {nods}
final part to come soon. ^_^

so.

this was pretty the best weekend of my life. so many friends, so much candy, so much laughter, so much dancing and so many pics. not to mention a whole lotta making out. and did i mention boi love?!

posted in three parts because it's a whole lotta pics and a very long read otherwise.


( it all began thursday. )

next portion to come soon.

title: Warrick is Early.
author: bennizzlejizzle
fandom: CSI: Crime Scene Investigation
pairing: Warrick/Greg
rating: PG-13 thus far.
author’s notes: there’s not enough of my OTP out there. And of my sadness due to this fact, this fic was born. I own nothing.
summary: Nick’s worried about Warrick. Warrick’s worried about the new DNA tech and her relationship with Greg. Greg’s worried about… well, Warrick has no clue what he’s worried about.


( Warrick is Early )

( fill in the blanks )

//edit: got the dorm..

that was soooo much fun. ^_^

there's only so much you can learn in one place.
the more that i wait, the more time that i waste.

queenofthorns posted this Awesome Love Meme. here are the rules:

How To Play:

1) Comment with your username.

2) Go back to your own LJ and post the link to your comment because otherwise, no one will know to come fawn over you if you don't tell them about it!

3) Your friends will leave ANONYMOUS comments to your comment about all the many reasons that you are WONDERFUL, and then they will comment with THEIR usernames and go post the link to THEIR comments and it will be a giant big snowball of love.

4) We will all feel WARM and FUZZY and excited about the KINDNESS OF STRANGERS! YAY!!!


my link is here. answer mine, then post this in your own lj, spread the love!

so paco and nique drove into town this past weekend, and it was fabulous. when paco and john saw each other again [for the first time in 3 or 4 months? not sure], it was the sweetest thing ever. it was almost liek everything was going in slow motion as they walked towards each other. they hugged and exchanged whispered words for a few minutes, and when finally they broke apart, i could see tears shining under the streetlights. it was a very sweet moment, and i'm so happy for both of them. i only hope that one day i find that. that mutual just... love. where it's right and real. they inspire me. ♥


saturday was our gathering, which is basically just a bunch of people, my house, pancakes and/or cupcakes, dancing, tv, movies, and my computer [which was broken this time, much to d'art's dismay]. it was oodles of fun, complete with boi love, john obsessing over pancakes, billy moments, fiona being adorable, fake orgasms, spanking john with chris's belt, chris giving a fantastic lapdance, and dancing. we watched the first season of noah's arc, which was awesome because i love that show.

of course the best part was when we were all dancing in my living room to "Snap Your Fingers" and my parents and aunt and uncle walked in. The aunt and uncle are conservative stuffed-shirts, born and raised. so imagine their dismay at paco and john making out on the couch, everyone backing that ass up and even a little dropping like it's hot. they were so shell-shocked, especially when mom joined in. It was hilarious, they sat in the kitchen, peering at us through the fake plant that was sitting there. my aunt even took off her glasses, rubbing her eyes to make sure that she was really seeing this craziness. dad even joined in at one point, although he wasn't snapping his fingers. he's like "i don't go with the green" or some shit liek that. i love his little 70s slipups. they're awesome. my mom even told the relatives that i'm bi, of her own volition. it was just a crazy night.

and of course i have ( pictures )

not your soldier

this blanket is going to give me hell.

( [all about me] )

National Coming Out Day is today!

i totally forgot about it but i was rainbowtastic anyway lol.


if not for youself, do it for those who can't, to spite those who think we should hide, but most of all to show that we're not afraid.
do it for Matthew Shepherd and all the others who have been attacked and died because of what they are.





R.I.P. Matthew Shepherd. I can't believe we're still fighting this battle.

"If you take yourself out of the game for fear of losing, then there's no way you can win." -- Dolly Parton in an episode of Hannah Montana

"Why is it that, as a culture, we are more comfortable seeing two men holding guns than holding hands?" - Ernest Gaines

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." - Dr. Seuss

"The best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up." -- Muhammed Ali.

"The only thing that separates the person you are from the person you want to be are the actions you take." -- Unknown

"The only unbearable thing is that nothing is unbearable." --Arthur Rimbaud.

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